An unknown street

Somewhere in Northern hemisphere

February 2020

I have lots of things to say, but I don’t know how you will react after this.
My dear every person has more than one identity & there is nothing bad about that, human lives many lives at a same time.
I had never imagined that you would become such an important in my life.
Indeed, I’m not really important in your life, as you still didn’t know which part I’m playing in your life.
First time I met you, I thought this colour will fade soon but since I start killing time with you this colour becomes grumous & loveable.
It was me who kiss you, even without touching you, it was me who scold you, it was me who de magnified your airs, it was me who wakes up with you overnight, and it was me who get pain from you.
It’s you innocence or madness that you can’t figure out that it’s me who is writing on you.

I know your every secret… Garments colour, how to make you lively and even the time when you are going to take deep breath but the only thing I’m still unaware about you is what you think about me.
We met at wrong place, we did wrong things but trust me I did every wrong thing in right way, in the way that bring smile on face & peace in mind. In the beginning I thought it’s just a dream & it will vanish by next morning, but night by night you were becoming most important for me.
Your presence were making me to forget my surrounding and at same time a fear was killing me… what if you get it’s me who is closing your eyes. Night by night I was getting how to make you mine but the problem was if I have to make you mine I have to lose myself and so I did. I did everything to make you mine, but still there was something missing…It was me. The other side of me were resisting to love you as it know you will never and ever accept my reality. But when my strings get attached with problems of your life my other side melts. It was not you who was with me, it was your dark side which comes out to let me see how alone you are in this world. It was my duty to be with you, to make you realize every single second of night that you are not alone. It was me who was guiding you in every step. Now step by step you were coming very close to me…this time emotionally.

How lucky I am, I have saw you not only with beauty but also in pain, but still how unlucky I am I can’t make my beloved one happy forever.Indeed you can say “it’s not love, it was your desire” but I swear I have never used you. I found myself completely lost when I were with you. But I could not deny that I did not like when you were with someone else. I just wanted to keep you in my arms for long time but… Everything has an end.

 I have never disrespected you I never lied to you but the truth was you never ask me about truth, that’s the things which makes me to realize how much you need me. It’s your innocence here. You may have several roles in life but I proudly can say that I know your real colour.
I was afraid that if I will share truth, I gonna loose you, but I realize I have never won you…Or maybe I have lost you to get you.

My dear lady, you have spent bad time without me, a good time with me & you can spend rest of life without me but I’m pretty sure you will never share your life with me. I wish very good health ahead I wish you get what you want in life, I wish you never meet someone like me & I wish this help you to realize how I still love you. We have been together from long time & I share my every single part of life with you, but still I didn’t get that much courage in 365 days to tell who I am. It’s a leap year & I thought it’s a sign to share what I really want to…so on this special & extra day of February I just want to say… sorry and thank you.

An unforgettable man